Christmas, good timing.

I'm glad it's nearly Christmas, and that all my classes are over. I've just come out of a five-week D.

That's not a bad one, to feel depressed for only five weeks at this time of year, getting off lightly, especially when I consider the hell that nearly ended me last November. So I am lucky. But it's INCREDIBLY hard to keep up with work when you're depressed! I had to get extensions for various projects, missed lots of classes, I've been having catch-up tutorials. Then my meds got put up, so we're looking at drowsiness on top of the 24-hour fatigue... I missed a lot. But do you want to know the happy ending? I'm feeling better, albeit very socially isolated (when I'm depressed I hide in my room, I've been too scared to go into the kitchen or talk to the people I used to be friends with at the start of the semester. I guess social anxiety is par for the course). So I'm feeling better, I met all my deadlines, I'm caught up (with good grades) and tonight I'm going home.

They call them episodes, and they do feel like little soap operas sometimes.

Last night, I did the first social thing I've done in two months, I went on the music technology night out. It was very dull, although I had an interesting conversation about LSD. It was too loud, with all the music, and talking, it was not a pleasant environment. It's funny I used to work in a bar, and a hotel bar, but ever since I became a recluse who only listens to ambient music alone in his room, my standards have obviously changed!

I've been lurking and posting on this interesting site- www.wrongplanet.net

This comes in the wake of my Community Psychiatric Nurse, mother and various other people pointing out that I, apparently, have Aspergers Syndrome. I looked up all the symtons and though I'm not formally diagnosed 'The glove fits.' I've been lurking over there and it's been very informative, some threads I've stumbled across that are uncannily similar to my own experience. Like, uncanny, I swear.

So what lies in store over the holidays? Fun with MaxMSP and guitars! More studying! (I love studying music so much) and seeing the family. Would like to see my cousin, spend a lot of time with him. He has suffered a similar medicated twilight in recent times. You never feel quite normal on meds.

So have a great solstice, any readers out there.